Not sure

Alas. I'm actually sitting in a grad class right now. Should I be listening? Well, yes. Am I? Well, no.

I guess there is a lot on my mind right now, and it's a bit difficult for me to really focus on anything. Rough day at work, friends. Ruff. I'd love to gripe and give specifics. I'd love to point a finger and blame someone else and proclaim loudly all that is wrong in the world around me. But it's not about that. This is not that.

The thing is that God likes to take us some places that we don't want to go. He likes to give us lessons on things that we weren't expecting to learn. Perhaps there is a lot more from this to learn than I'd ever realized. I'm trying to focus on God right now. Trying hard to focus on His lessons, and not what someone else thinks I need to know.

It's hard for a few reasons, not at the least of which is the fact that all parties involved are suffering from imperfection. I need to understand that my view is not the right view, but neither is the other person's. We suffer from the sin of bias. Most of the human race falls into this daily. We all like to think that our view is right. That we know the answer. That someone else has to be wrong because they don't see the light.

Good grief, it's been such a long day. No amount of sleep will be enough.... But somehow it has to be. Sometimes you have to pay the rent so you don't get a choice.

Where's my lunchbox?

Well, I'm now in the middle of the second week of grad school. Which means more homework than I'd personally care for, and inevitably, looming papers.

All in all, it's really not so bad. Things are finally starting to slow up at work a bit, so I'm able to take a look at things, but still...lots of papers. And I completely forgot about that Saturday class next week. Well...I almost forgot.

The thing is, this time graduation actually seems like a goal. Not just something that happens at the end of it all. I think graduation was always generally expected before. Just keep doing all the work like a normal person, and eventually they'll give you a piece of paper that says it was all worth it. This time around, I'm pushing toward that goal like it's going out of style. I can't seem to get there fast enough. Which is weird to think about only 3 class sessions in.

Honestly, it's gonna be hard. I've never had to worry about papers and work. And trying to maintain my long distance relationship. But at least he's supportive. Not exactly thrilled that I've decided to get a degree, but he's willing to put up with it in the mean time. I might have to promise to take him to disney world or something just for working through it with me, but we shall see.

Either way...I've got homework to do. What the junk am I doing bumming around trying to post a blog? I need to read 8 chapters from a boring book so I can post on the discussion board. Goodbye writing things that are interesting...hello homework.