Not sure

Alas. I'm actually sitting in a grad class right now. Should I be listening? Well, yes. Am I? Well, no.

I guess there is a lot on my mind right now, and it's a bit difficult for me to really focus on anything. Rough day at work, friends. Ruff. I'd love to gripe and give specifics. I'd love to point a finger and blame someone else and proclaim loudly all that is wrong in the world around me. But it's not about that. This is not that.

The thing is that God likes to take us some places that we don't want to go. He likes to give us lessons on things that we weren't expecting to learn. Perhaps there is a lot more from this to learn than I'd ever realized. I'm trying to focus on God right now. Trying hard to focus on His lessons, and not what someone else thinks I need to know.

It's hard for a few reasons, not at the least of which is the fact that all parties involved are suffering from imperfection. I need to understand that my view is not the right view, but neither is the other person's. We suffer from the sin of bias. Most of the human race falls into this daily. We all like to think that our view is right. That we know the answer. That someone else has to be wrong because they don't see the light.

Good grief, it's been such a long day. No amount of sleep will be enough.... But somehow it has to be. Sometimes you have to pay the rent so you don't get a choice.