Psalm 62

S: v1 - "I wait quietly before God, for my victory comes from Him."

O: David seems to be the eternal optimist. No matter what crap he faces, and no matter how bad things seem, he still looks to God as his salvation and redemption. He seems to always find the hope in the middle of the worst situations. I have no doubt that he must have had periods of depression or self-doubt...but even with that the Psalms always seem to come back around full circle to put God at the center of everything and the source of hope and protection. Here he isn't the one out looking for victory. He instead chose to wait quietly before God. He's trusting ahead of time that God will do what he promised to do. And he is going to wait - not necessarily sit back and do nothing - but wait before God. And quietly. It's easy to keep my mouth running and bug God about what's going to happen next, bud David chose to wait quietly. I think a key point here is that he's waiting quietly before God. This implies to me a spirit of prayer. He probably didn't just sit around and wait for something to happen. He later says "Let all that I am wait quietly before God" (V. 5). It sounds like a reminder to himself to keep struggling forward despite whatever challenges are at hand.

A: I think sometimes it is harder to wait on God than anything else. My nature is to go out and fix whatever is wrong. I see a problem, and I immediately want to attack it. Financially, it bugs me so much right now that we can't be more proactive in what we put into savings. But at the same time, I am trusting that God is going to be the one to take care of us. I am trying so hard to find contentment in where we are at. Honestly, I think I often underestimate and undervalue the way God has been providing for us in the past year. Maybe this is where we are meant to be for some reason that is beyond our control. We aren't hurting for money, but we aren't where we want to be. So maybe that's my challenge for today -- to wait quietly before God. To have patience that God is waiting for the perfect opportunity at the right moment. Maybe I need to remember that God needs to be the center of everything -- especially including the anxiety about our finances. He's going to work things together according to his purpose and not mine. And maybe I need to learn to be more quiet while I'm waiting on God. My victory comes from Him, and I need to walk in faith that He will secure the victory for us. I don't need to whine about it. I don't need to get frustrated about it. I need to daily give back the pieces of the situation that I've tried over and over to take for my own. Part of this is about surrender. Part of it is about trust. And all of it is about believing that God's ways are higher than my ways, and that he sees things that aren't even on my radar.

P: God, take my fears and worries. I am choosing today to wait quietly in your presence. I am choosing to trust that you really do work all things together for good. I am choosing to believe that all things are possible through you. And I am choosing to remember that you love us so much that we can't even begin to comprehend it all. Remind me that these things I fight aren't even my battle to win or lose. They are yours. Remind me daily that my victory comes from you and you alone. Amen.