I'm so...

...over this right now.

/sigh/

It's been a long day. And somehow, in the middle of all of this, I am trying to remember that God is bigger than all of my whiny little problems. Bigger than what I think is important. Bigger than how I feel at the moment. (Which, honestly, is bored to tears from this class that is far less than interesting and simultaneously way over my head.)

Its frustrating to me sometimes that I want things to go a certain way in a certain time frame. And, yet, God always seems to have something completely different up his sleeves. Which is good. Because God is good. But being human, it is still hard to understand and deal with.

I just want things to work out faster. I want Matt to have that job and get that ring, and marry me already. I want to find a job that I really love, not just one that pays the bills. I want to pay off this beast of burden that is my car. I want to get out of this blessed state that is way too humid for anyone, really. Yet here I am. Still not married. Still paying off a car loan. Still sitting through a class that I don't really care about or understand. Still wondering how all of God's plans are going to start making sense in the messed up life language that I speak.

God, you're good. Sarah, have some patience for crying out loud.